Thursday, December 21, 2006

you walk in and the first thing you hear is, well, let me explain...
this is never a good start for the morning, or even in any circumstance, right?
if it's followed with, this is the plan, i'm a little more at ease.

you stop and think about your options at this point...
exhaust all possibilities and hope for the best is how I roll...

the day continues and you give 110%
others are having a normal mundane Thursday but not you...
you run until you can't breathe...
people aren't pulling their weight and you end up pulling theirs as well as your own...
the remaining energy that you may still have could be used in one of two ways at this point,
a. anger at others lack of work ethic and effort
b. become excited that it's over and you get to go home now.

not everyday can be a walk in the park.
it's your decision whether you're going to let it get you down.

Saturday, December 09, 2006

Assumption is the Devil

Why do people think they can get away with CRAP?

EXAMPLE:

Employers that decide to schedule you outside your availability.

You tell them when you can work then they schedule you outside your availability and when you confront them about it, the answer you get is "I wasn't aware of that."

QUESTION: Why fill out an availability form for a reference if the person that's supposed to use it doesn't actually apply the data? How could you possibly be unaware?

ARGGGGGGhhhhhh!!!!!

Granted, I do realize that the task of doing a schedule for over 100 employees that all have different needs etc. Is no easy task nor one that anyone wants. Technology has come a LONG way. Now our availability is plugged into a computer and the only human involvement is to adjust it accordingly to the specifications on the availability Form we've previously filled out.

Whatchu thinkin? If there is any mention of working extra to help out the assumption automatically is that you can work everyday all day.. Lost in translation. I said that I wanted to discuss the possibility of doing so. You give them an inch they assume they can take a mile. Why? You should know that will only make it so that I won't want to "volunteer" or "help" your cause in the future. Don't you see that?

Please, if you can do one thing for me, Never Again play the Dumb Card. What a waste of intelligence. If you're going to be a liar, become a clever one. Use vocabulary or extensive elaboration. Creativity people, it's not a bad option.

Oh, I see. You can't do that because that would require an original thought. That's not part of the "programming" that you get when you become a manager. That also means that you're an individual and not part of the collective, aka CORP. You wonder why I don't want to have any part in that cup of tea? You obviously don't know who you're dealing with.

Are my request extremely outlandish to be considered?

Is it really too much to ask?

In my own defense:
I'd like to mention that I really would do anything to help another human being out in a heart beat. I honestly do like people in general and want to make the world a better place if at all possible. This is my voice to the world and to refine it I write it out.

Sunday, December 03, 2006

Distracted much?

I find that time and time again I fill my life with things that don't really matter.
distractions.
at times, there are so many different things going on that they overlap and collide.
Where is there any time left for me?
The sacrifice of "me" time takes it's toll eventually and I tend to shut down.
that's not very productive...
Another thing that I noticed is that people in general like to distract themselves with their futures or even their pasts so much so that they waste today.
How can you ever get where you want to go if you're either looking backwards or lost in a distant future?
Gleaned wisdom from your past can give you an idea where not to step in today and a sure footing in your tomorrow.
Planning ahead is good, don't get me wrong but in the case of a person with their head in the clouds, not so good. Some of us become stagnant in our present because we're so distracted by our pending futures and wishful thinking.
I constantly have to check myself, where am I going, am I actively taking the right steps to get there, am I making any progress, don't forget what I've learned from past experiences, don't repeat past mistakes, etc.
Remember yesterday, enjoy today, and look forward to tomorrow.

Monday, November 27, 2006

TIME

we all look at it differently.
some say that time speeds by too quicky, moves too slow or can't be fast enough.
what is it for you?
how do you measure it?
years? day? minutes? birthdays? milestones?

Saturday, November 18, 2006

Why wear a mask

Why wear a mask?
Is mediocrity enough?
most of us are daily wearer's of a mask or costume of sorts.
our true potential hanging just within our reach but never grasped and or embraced.we hide our faces as to protect ourselves from failure or rejection possibly.
are those consequences really all that horrible?
are they really consequences or opportunities in disguise?
we wear a costume to pretend that we're something we're not even for just a moment.
for some these items they place upon themselves give them the liberation from an otherwise, in their mind, boring or less than par self.
why is it that cloth, a wig or mask can set you free?
is this just the easy way out?
is it really more difficult to keep the mask off and find the same liberation?
I say yes.
with so many variables pulling us in all different directions it's almost impossible to find balance and a center.
Almost, being the key word there.
you can make a list of all the millions of things that are Almost impossible.
if you look at the word IMPOSSILE the "IM" is the smaller part of the word and "possible" is the better half of the word.
Person One: dwells on the latter portion of this two word defeatist, impossible, may never accomplish anything in life. This person strives for mediocrity.
Person Two: will see and focus their energy on the tiny fraction of possibility, and will find a way to make things happen. This person strives for greatness.
which one are you?
why let 2 letters keep greatness from happening?
don't let 2 letters be your mask to hide behind.

Monday, November 13, 2006

Perspective

Everything happens for a reason and how It needs to so that we can reach our full potential in life. Our agency allows us to chose how we get there. some take the easy road and others the hard because we are all different and learn in our own way. I learn vicariously through others mostly, but others have to go and do in order to understand, consequences and all. life's not all peaches and cream and nobody's perfect. we pick our battles in life and what's worth our time. as long as you let the Lord play his part in all your decisions and have faith in him you'll never be lead astray. know yourself. trust yourself. trust your heart and the spirit of the Lord to be your guide.

Sunday, November 12, 2006

Step beyond your zone of comfort

When I told a new acquaintance that I get stage fright and can't do any sort of performance in front of groups exceeding the number of 5 people they're response was utter shock.
they told me that I was the most outspoken and friendly person they knew and couldn't believe I could possibly have any such shyness.
oh, yes I could...
I haven't always been "miss talks to everyone, can I be your friend."
believe you me it's been a long time coming and some serious work to get to where I am today.
what really is there to fear in speaking up?
to say hello to a stranger...
what's the worst to happen?
rejection?
if that's the worst conclusion, if you really think about it, you just back to square one.
square one being not knowing them. Where's the loss?
there's plenty of other people in the world
if one doesn't respond to your liking move on and look at it as their loss.
quality people not quantity if you ask my opinion.
life can be simple and very fulfilling if you allow it to be.
use your filter and find the gems.
they are out there.
so, refine your eyes and ears and your collection can become priceless and of rare beauty.

Friday, November 10, 2006

whatchu thinking???

At what point in life does one realize their affinity for hot pink?
a few days ago I had yet another pink flamingo man sighting.
from head to toe he's decked out in hot pink
his hair is pink
hat-pink
clothes..
Fanny pack..
shoes...
everything.
wow!
Now, all those who know me are aware of my affinity for nerds and also midgets.
I've always had the one for nerds but the midget thing is a recent occurrence.
something about the One Man Dinner and Hatch's Chocolate shop on E St....
or maybe it's the obsession with the Wizard of Oz that I had when I was very young...
who knows?
what goes through a grown man's mind while getting dressed that would make him think that hot pink was definitely his season?
to be cont'd....

speak into the mic

for the longest time i felt the things i had to say were not of any importance to anyone else.
in response to this i chose to be silent.
what a waste!
i've recently found my voice.
my thoughts are valid and are being heard.
not only heard but listened to.
liberation!!!!!
thank you to those open ears.

Sunday, November 05, 2006

Class Dismissed

i've come to realize that everyday is a new beginning. A clean start is always best.
wisdom from the day before carries over and it builds.
i consider myself a student of life.
my eyes are open to all there is to learn and i ask the questions that need to be asked and answered.
one of the most important ones that i feel is WHY?
this is how i continue to be a student.
each new experience is another chapter in the book i like to call life.
people add the colors that we see and help us along the way to find ourselves.
if we make a conscious effort to get to know everyone our picture only becomes brighter and more clear.
my challenge to others is to be sincere and be the first to say hello.
don't stop yourself from possibly making the best friend you've ever met by not saying something.

Tuesday, October 31, 2006

The View

off in the distance the sky is red like fire as if the mountain are a blaze.
the sun is setting.
the last rays are piercing through.
the clouds move and change so swiftly.
in seconds it's gone.
it's night.

Thursday, October 26, 2006

True Colors

other than the scientific reasons, why is it that when most things in life are passing on their true colors come out?
take Autumn for example:
trees all look the same up until autumn comes and then they turn all sorts of colors, their TRUE colors if you will.
Compare this to life.
A person you know seems perfectly fine one moment then you find out that they have some terminal ailment. That person is now faced with a choice aren't they, live out their days the best way they know how or be miserable and make everyone miserable around them.
i'd want for the first to be my choice.
I'd want to be the tree that changes to all sorts of colors that contrast the others bringing great awe and beauty to the world.

Wednesday, October 25, 2006

Walk like you mean it

Do you dare bust a move?
walking down the street
with your headphones on
a dance worthy song is rockin
Do you fight it?
I declare, ROCK IT!
what's it going to hurt?
what's the worst it could do?
it would be a shame to waste a perfect groove on a bland stride.
CAUTION:
beware you may cause rubber necking, could result in collision's !

Polar Bear Anyone?

You turn on the tube and for what reason...
so, there's this show
you're hooked
it's ridiculous
honestly, what's its appeal? I don't get it...
if anything it frustrates you more than anything
but you still watch it...
some of the characters are bland, it's all scattered, people die off all the time, new people show up out of nowhere like they've always been there...
I'm so LOST...

Saturday, October 21, 2006

What is a Nerd?

personally i like nerds...
Nerd...
what does that mean to you?

Thursday, October 19, 2006

Scattered Memories

Like an attic the webs form in the corners of his mind. Memories stored in boxes marked in sharpie faded to illegible. He sees faces in old pictures that have a familiarity but he can't place from where or why...
sometimes the rays from the windows catch something new to bring to focus but only for a brief moment and then it's gone.. Where am I? Who am I? What yr is it? Is what goes through his mind...
It's 20 yrs ago for him and where's his brother? He asks.. He has to take me to work. I'm going to be late.
Grandpa it's me. Where are you? It's 2006 and we're not in Kansas.
He's a fighter.
time passes and he's still here.
his body is shutting down but he holds on.
There she is! His grand daughter, where have you been? I'm so happy that you're here.
He sleeps unmoved.
It's time is whispered into her ear.
It's ok, they're all waiting for you.
you don't have to fight anymore.
We love you.

Wednesday, October 18, 2006

Ode

Ode to Christmas Butter and how i love thee...
i make my toast and oh so sweet
i cover you with Christmas Butter man what a treat.
you have cinnamon, honey and buttery taste,
i can't let even a drop of you go to waste.
hmmm... Christmas Butter.

Saturday, October 14, 2006

1..2..3..4..5..

where do we go from here?
connect the dots and what picture is it making?
sometimes it's easy to see the next point but others seems to take forever and you just keep shuffling things around until you hit it eventually.
if we go in the wrong direction will Mikey Mouse end up with 3 ears?
can't have that.

Wednesday, October 11, 2006

Captain Vague Strikes Again

We all do this, and why?
is it to hide from the truth due to fear of criticism or judgment or is it to spare feelings of another?
Either way, what's the point?
The way I see it the truth comes out whether you want it to or not from either your mouth or another's and if you want to avoid the backlash, Just Put it Out There Man! Tell it like it is.
The truth hurts sometimes, but when you put it out there you don't have to back peddle.
fear of criticism or judgment
why the fear?
I've decided what works the best for me is to make sure my actions and decisions are something to be proud of and not hidden. If it doesn't fit either of those two categories then it's not worth doing.
these are the things that add in defining us right? So, why hide them? If somebody wants to criticize that then go right ahead.
to spare someone's feelings
people say they want the truth but get hurt when it's given.
don't ask me if you don't really want to know.
I'm just going to give you what you asked for
it's all in the way you word it
make it simple
try to imagine the world if nobody ever gave a blunt answer, and all the facts were vague. I'd go nuts!
Am I way off base here?
or is the world better off with it's translucent truths?
whatcha thinkin!?

Definition: Vague
'v Ag
adjective
etymology: Middle French, from Latin vagus, literally, wandering
1 a: not clearly expressed: stated in indefinite terms b: not having a precise meaning
2 a: not clearly defined, grasped, or understood : indistinct; also: slight b: not clearly felt or sensed:
somewhat subconscious
3: not thinking or expressing one's thoughts clearly or precisely
4: lacking expression : vacant
5: not sharply outlined: hazy -obscure

I'm 12 again

the world is still amazing...
creativity has no bounds
everything is still fun and exciting
i'm light hearted
the little things in life make me happy
i laugh at myself and shoot, i'm hilarious
lets go play and invent things
my mind is full of adventures to be had
being silly is still exceptable
most things don't matter
why did i ever grow up?

Tuesday, October 10, 2006

Tune in

If i wasn't able to hear i wouldn't want to live...
pretty much ya
Music is my one true love in life and to be deprived of that one things would be the end of me.
the lyrics speak my life's truth, the music describes my emotions, and it just makes everything tangible.
you're probably thinking over dramatic much...
that's fine and i agree...
but to find that sort of connection with something in life is crucial and amazing.
can i even be so bold as to say, rare?.
harmony, melody, greatness, etc....
wahoo!!!

Friday, October 06, 2006

What does it mean to control?
in life, can you do so?
We all have the ability to know ourselves well enough to control certain aspects of ourselves but can you truly control everything? (there are so many outward element that play a part in our lives)
No.
Mostly there is supression or escapism that gives the illusion of control.
Find the root.
What's making things surface that are normally supressed or dodged?
Look it directly in the face and either overcome or walk away. Don't hide.
Most of us dwell on our past so much so that we can't enjoy the now or look to the future.
why do we do this?
Have we not gleaned what was necessary from those experiences?
You can't walk forward if you're looking backwards without falling flat.
Yes, those experiences and people have helped in shaping us into who we are but you still have the cards in your hands to make the next move in the game.
Discard those you don't need and keep those that are still of value to the ending win.
Along the way these cards may change.
is in your heart to fold, bluff, or call?
what risk are you willing to take?
never knowing, faking it, or standing firm?
chew on that for a while.

Tuesday, October 03, 2006

Just Say No!

The movie the Producers.
yes it's a Mel Brooks film but what the hell?
I did laugh and find myself watching it occasionally while it was on.
So, ok, i hate musicals.
maybe not hate but i don't buy them or watch them on purpose.
Mostly, it seems to be a huge crew of Drag queens and the way people sing in them drives me up the wall. (Dude, I dig Drag queens, they're better at being a girl then I am for sure)
Better yet, why don't we just run nails down the chalkboard... cuz that would be better.
The only thing I enjoyed about the movie was when Will Farrell was on the screen as a German, leiderhosen wearing, NAZI, enthusiast. That was rather funny.

Just Say No to Musicals!!!
I do have to admit that I like Wizard of Oz but honestly, who doesn't?
Calamity Jane, that was entertaining.

Nothing else of this genre have I like since.

the end.

Monday, October 02, 2006

Living Creatures

Creatures of the earth, large and small, etc. all deserve to be loved or at least treated with respect.
Pet:
if you're going to own an animal and consider them a pet, TAKE CARE OF IT! there is more to keeping an animal then just giving it food, water and shelter.... think about that.
Other:
why would they have been placed on the planet if they didn't serve some sort of purpose in the circle of life. RESPECT THAT!
For those that don't agree with me, those that think that animals don't have feeling or a sense of self/emotions, why would they have been given a brain or nerve endings to only be numb and thoughtless? WAKE UP!

What if you were on the flip side of the coin? Would you want somebody else to treat you the way you treat creatures of the world? PONDER!

that's all I have to say about that.

Friday, September 29, 2006

How was your day?

Everywhere you look the world tells you to focus on only the negative. You turn on the news the main focus guaranteed will be something with a sense of gloom and negativity. Why so much pessimism? There are so many good things that occur everyday and why don't they receive the same attention?
Think about when you hear something positive, depending on the mood you're in, sometimes the initial response is yuck. It may even be followed by a, why don't you just rub my face it. Why do we do this?
Attitude. Maybe we all need an attitudinal adjustment. Humh? Go ahead and say yuck if you want, but hey, at least I'm going to have more good days. Stop dwelling on the past and gloom of life. Focus on the good and positive. Strive to find the uplifting and see how your day ends up. Stop and smell the roses. Say thank you to kindness and mean it sincerely. Don't always assume the worst of people, and give them the chance to prove that we're not all bad and out to get you. Think the best until proven to be otherwise.
It's all a choice that we make everyday and moment of our lives. Take charge of your emotions and situations in life and choose to not have what others say or do effect you.
Remove the constant sour diet of pessimism, faultfinding, second-guessing, and ill speaking towards one another. Be the first.

Thursday, September 28, 2006

Shifting

Life's funny you know. It seems to shift as the earth spins on it's axis and all the content slides into a new resting place, so is life thereafter. People surface as everything shifts adding color and spice to the landscape. As you get to know them more definition occurs that contours the details giving everything vibrance and life. Over time and after everything gains its "true" form the axis pivots and the process seems to start all over again.

Monday, September 25, 2006

Forget the past? Category: Life
i've heard that everyones past come back to haunt them.
i believe this to be a true statement. Most of us trudge on and keep our heads up and i hope that i'm one of them.
when faced with the decision to confront history do you take it if once before when faced, it almost repeated itself?
how can you truly move on by not saying anything? If saying something only means opening the communication again and that being a bad thing in my case it shouldn't be done right?
what if the conclusion is a response? Merely to inform/update the past with the current to show that there isn't any room in the future for the past.

Saturday, September 23, 2006

why can't I just do the simple things that direct me to get where I want/need to go?
why is there hesitation?
Is it fear?
If so, what am I afraid of?
Stop and smell the roses kid.
slow time down and breathe.
enjoy the light and all that it unvails.
cast aside the unnecessary and make it simple.
seek to serve others and in turn it will be a true service to thyself.
why be selfish? where does it get you? can you be so and have another stand byside you?
strive to achieve that which only you are capable/able to.
make decisions with not only yourself in mind.
see through others eyes.
have fun.
live life.
listen.
smile.

Friday, September 22, 2006

Are you thinking?

People of the world I ask you this...
Why on God's green earth would you ever assume or think that I would love to style anyone's hair for free?
Now I'm generally a nice person and would love to do some service for those less fortunate than myself, but when it comes to business and money there's NO FREEBEES!!!
Unless I offer this to you out of the goodness of my heart, there should only be predetermined moneys handed from you to me, after service has been completed.
Your mom may cut your hair for free, but I'm not your mom.
You may offer to take me out for a meal but that's only in addition to the payment NOT instead of. I can feed myself more effectively with the money that you give me, then to be taken to a restaurant and waste 10 bucks and gas to get there. To me, that's silly.
Just to be even more clear, when you are asking for a service to be done, you are now a client, and when has a client in any profession, ever decided the payment?
To acquire the skills of any profession cost a lot of money and why would anyone pay for this only to, in the end do it for FREE?

This is how I view it.

For future reference:

Haircuts: $20.00 =$10-my time + $10-my knowledge/experience.

In most salons: $25-60+ = they only get 50% and they rush through it to get rid of you so they can make more money, more butts in the seat the more money in their pocket at the end of the day.

Me- I'm about quality not quantity. I do this because I love it and want to help. If I wanted the money I'd work in a salon and charge you $50+, because that's what I'm worth there via experience and education. If you do the math, you're still getting a deal any way that you look at it.

For those of you that want everything for nothing, it's because of you that there aren't more of people like me. For people with the previously mentioned attitudes, Leave Me Alone. Quit bugging me to do you hair cuz I'm not interested. I want to continue doing hair and loving it but if I allow myself to take clients like you I'd start to hate it again and I don't want that.
I'm great at what I do, so pay me what I ask and Quit Complaining. If you want to pay less go to Cost Cutters and see what you end up with but DO NOT come crying to me to fix it.

That's How It Is.

Sunday, September 17, 2006

What color are you?

What color are you?
Some people collect stamps, some cars... Me? Friends. It amazes me everyday how wonderfully different people are. If you were to compare people to colors I like them to be every shade of every color possible. Bright colors are fun and surprising. Dark may be deep and thought prevoking. Pastels are sweet and can either off set others or compliment them very nicely. Primary are the root of all color.. the source if you will...
Over time I've collected so many, which I'm truly grateful for. Some come and go. Some are still around and other yet to come.. I'm excited to see what's next.

Saturday, September 16, 2006

what's this?

Why yes, it's another blog... but you know, i'm ok with that. The way I look at it is at least it's not Myspace.